Harsh Reality

If you do your job well, as a parent, you will find yourself obsolete. Today, a holiday, is a true depiction of this fact. Although I talked to 3 of them. None of them seemed concerned about what I was doing, given that it was a holiday.  Each of them had her own agenda. My parents' generation, put a guilt trip on their children for this very reason.  "I was all alone." "I didn't have anything to do." My mother says that to me. Somehow, children are supposed to become responsible for the adults. But I don't think so. 

The harsh reality for me is this.  Now that I am (almost) relieved of the day-to-day obligation of taking care of all of them, I now am responsible for taking care of myself.  But I have been subjugated to their needs for so long that absent of their needs, I struggle. As a parent who has mentally been there for so long, more than 1/2 of my life, I almost feel guilty to be self-involved.

But I no longer have a choice. And still, they are watching...